8 years...

Smack dab in the middle of a couple crazy weeks we celebrated our 8th wedding anniversary.  We celebrated with my hubby driving us to meet my dad so the boys and I could escape the totally awesome kitchen remodel going on.  Next to the anniversary we forgot (#4) this was probably the most played down anniversary we've ever had.  We aren't big gift givers and this year we just couldn't make time to even go out to eat together yet.  I'm hoping to fix that when we get home in a week.

with permission- Wagener Photography 2004

Thankfully, there was a little God moment this week that I'm clinging to during this time away.

Our church uses the revised common lectionary for it's lessons each Sunday.  My husband truly believes it pushes him as preacher and pastor to find the gospel in every text and connect it to what is going on right now in people's lives.

The Old Testament text this Sunday was from Job 38:1-11.  The minute our reader started in, I had a song in my head.  I love it when I can connect songs and scriptures.  The song was from my hubby and my favorite band in college The Pool Boys (their music is on itunes).  Their song Angels (you can find a clip here) was one I never really understood, probably because I didn't realize what part of scripture it came from and I couldn't make a connection to the words.  We do love the song enough that it was played during the video at our reception with our baby pictures and dating pictures etc.

On Sunday my husband even preached on part of the text from Job which is amazing.  He is usually a gospel guy sticking with that text from the week.

So, not only am I carrying with me the memory of that song from our wedding, but I am carrying a new found knowledge of that part of scripture.

Job is hard.  I truly don't believe God creates or lets bad things happen to people just to flex God's muscles or show some kind of power.  I do believe bad things happen, but God uses them for good.  So, Job?  That's a tricky one and I haven't really studied the book.

The text from Job 38 is God asking a lot of questions of Job.  I serve a loving and kind God, but in this picture from Job I see God sitting with me pointing a finger at me to make a point.  Asking question after question in rapid fire.  Questions that right now I am pondering because I seem to be at that point in my life.   I'm trying to control things in my life that aren't in my control.

Lindy, Were you there when I laid the foundation?
Lindy, do you even understand what happened there?  Can you explain it?
Lindy, do you have command of the morning?
Lindy,  Were you there when the morning star sang?
Lindy, why do you talk without knowing?


I try too hard.  I expect too much of everyone and everything but God.  The pain is because I do think I know the answer to all questions, but I don't.  The reminders playing out over and over in rapid fire because this is a learning time.

So, with confidence I do answer, all I know is that I am loved by God.  God is good all the time.  God loves me and created me.  So, I stand before God knowing that's all I know and that is more than good enough.