2011

During these first few days of 2011 I kind of stuck my hand up at setting goals, visions, or dreams.  All of those things just made me cringe.  I didn't want to set myself up for failure or even worse, for something that I couldn't hold up in front of me and see the results of.  I set goals for myself and then it's a race to the finish even if there really isn't a finish line.  For example, I want to do XYZ everyday.  I start out on a dead sprint thinking there is some finish line but it never works out that way and I just burn out.  I know the suggestion is small rewards for the goals, but I can sometimes never see past the big picture.  

If I wrote this post 12 hours ago it might have looked different.  No goals, just idea, no concrete things to do, but suggestions.  Instead it has changed.  In the last 12 hours I know what I need to do.  It's not so much a want to do, but I know these needs will help me get to the wants.

For example, I want to exercise everyday, crochet, read, or craft every evening to unwind, keep the house clean, purge the house of unneeded stuff.  The list goes on and on, but I've narrowed it down.  If the things I do to unwind become goals, then in the end they can become a chore.  There is also things that I can't control and I might not be able to do those "fun" things everyday.  So here are the need to do's that will get me my wants.

-I need to keep up with the dailies.

-I need to see the process.

The dailies- I need to keep up with the house.  This will help me keep up with my extras and help them to feel like hobbies and not chores.  It will also help me to feel like a better mother and wife.  In the end, it will give me more time if I just keep up with it.  More time with the boys and my family and to do the fun stuff.

The process-  In the end, it's not how many things I crochet or craft or how many books I read.  It's the process.  It's not a race or even a walk.  It's something enjoyable and I need to realize it's not the end product I'm after.

So my goals my be a bit vague, but they are there.  I will post them on the bathroom mirror and remind myself everyday to take it one day at a time.