In my head

Do you write wonderful blog posts in your head, only to get to your computer and not have a clue what you wanted to say? Yep, that's me. I can write a great one in my head on my run, before bed, while nursing the baby. You name it and I've written it. Now, I sit down and can't remember anything...

I do know I was really emotional about a lady holding Matthew last night. It seems he came at just the right time?!?!? Two women in our congregations have lost husbands after battles with cancer. They happened so close. One within days of Matthew being born and one last week. The first lady was in my hospital room 3 or 4 times (with her family) to visit and hold Matthew. Anything to help her deal with her husband who was dying in hospice (but not to take her mind off of it, that wouldn't happen). The other held Matthew last night and told me stories of having children of her own. I'm sure telling those stories in some way helped her to remember her husband. It also reminds me that no matter what others think, a community of believers is necessary in our lives. They have both reminded me that it is all about family. Right now, not tomorrow...

I have also started running again. Going going going. It is teaching me new things. Every time I start running again after taking a long break I remember things about myself I want to change. I am a lover of routine and schedule. Running is reminding me that I am just lucky to get out the door whether it's in the morning or the evening. As long as I do it. It's also teaching me that just when you think you have it (in your spiritual life, relationships whatever) you have to relearn or keep learning it. I have to remind myself of running form all the time in the beginning. If I keep my shoulders down and hands low my neck won't hurt as much. You think I would remember this but I don't! I have to relearn my foot strike. Right now my left foot hurts a little. It'll get better as I keep going. I am remembering that I do enjoy it!

Now if I could only remember those other things I wanted to write about...I will sooner or later.