My unresolution...

I have seen some amazing goals, resolutions, and words for 2013.  People who are ready to dive in and get things done.

For me, I'm overwhelmed. I can't add one more thing to my list.  I have started the wheels in motion to lift a few of my burdens, but those take time.  

I'm far from perfect like Calvin is yelling, but I know my limits.
 
So I have a theme for this year.  Actually, my friend Christina came up with it!

I'm a big fan of the book Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World.  I know I've blogged about it and read it a dozen times.  This book speaks to me....over and over and over!  Our clergy spouse retreat, which Christina and I attend this fall used parts of Weaver's book.  I have many favorite parts, but one is an old story about a man and his wagon.  God calls the man to carry a stone in his wagon up the side of the mountain.  Too make a short story even shorter, the man gets to the top of the mountain with a wagon full of rocks and anger in his heart towards God.  God said the burden would be easy, but the man picked up more and more rocks as others asked him for help.  When he cries out to God, God reminds him that he was not asked to carry all of those rocks.  God only asked him to carry the one!

My theme for this year is to only carry what God has asked me too.  This means more intentional time in prayer, not saying yes immediately to things, and slowing down decision making.  This also means not carrying other peoples burdens.  God does that.  I want to be a compassionate, loving person.  I want to cry with people and laugh with people I love.  I have to remind myself that I can share in their burdens with prayer and reminding them who can help them carry their burdens.  It's not me, it's God. 

It's not about what I won't do, it's about knowing what God has called me to do.

God used my sweet friend Christina to remind me of this.  She made me a shadow box for Christmas.  In it was a picture of an old wagon and then she glued 3 rocks in the frame.  It was the perfect reminder and after thinking about that today I think I heard God speak!