I have finally come to realize that I was losing what I had worked so hard to find in myself during seminary.
Within the fear of being set apart has come a realization that it is freeing.
I'm a fighter. I fought so hard in seminary to find out who I was. I peeled layers of myself away so that I could prepare to not be like everyone else. I peeled and worked so that I could be me.
Because in all of the changes and unknowns that come with this calling I now know that I needed to understand exactly who I was.
Because in all of this, who I am, is not changing.
So, I go back to who I know I am.
Realizing, still 4 years later, we are all set apart for something.
There is an amazing freedom in being set apart.
There is freedom in that fear of the unknown that is the "God Known".
There is so much freedom in being who we are called to be. I am on this journey too, my friend. Being set apart, fully His, is what I desire above all other things.
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