My hand!

I feel sometimes I have a small hand of cards to play!  I can only hold so many cards in my hand and see the clearly enough to play them.  They are cards that involve my energy, changes I want to see, or projects I want to tackle.  These cards are mostly ones that directly involve others.  It's kind of like picking your battles with a toddler or your husband!  If I can change or deal with one or two things effectively what would it be?  I can't fix and change everything, at least all at once!

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I can get overwhelmed by the things I want to do and change around me.  But if I nag all the time at everything, either people will be annoyed by me or not listen and nothing will get done!  It's just like having my large list at the back of my binder and putting only one or two things on my daily list.  The stuff I see as wrong around me, just might not be for me to try and fix.  Heck, it might not even be wrong.  Is it really worth the battle?  Or, by living with it and accepting it, will I be happier and less stressed out?  If I can only pick one card to play, what is it going to be?

I think by choosing what I can effectively change and what I can't, I have made myself into a happier person!  If I tried to deal with everything about everything I would be very unhappy.  I can only deal with as many cards as I can hold in my hand.  I can't have an armful of change cards and be happy.  I live in a parsonage, my husband is a pastor, I have a toddler and a preschooler, I have a high involvement in both church and my MOPS group, I have very high expectations about my kids education, and the list goes on.  So, with the expectations, I pick.  I'm not giving up.  I just know which cards God is calling me to deal with, what cards God wants someone else to play, and what cards are suppose to be discarded (and used as a way for me to grow).  If life was perfect like I want it, I probably wouldn't like it anyway!