Looking Up

Although it seems that nothing is still going my way I will just have to look up.  At some point things will look up right?  The doctors office continued to give me the run around about rescheduling my appointment.  I ended up having to go help my daycare lady this morning while she took her son to the same clinic only in our small town.  Low & behold, my doctor was at the clinic in my town.  Usually I drive to the bigger one connected to the hospital in case I need blood drawn or something.  Why in the world did my appointment get rescheduled when he was going to be here?  So I called the big clinic and they said he wasn't coming in this afternoon.  I called the small clinic and they said they were closing early because of the weather.  I asked why he was even there.  Long story short, in my emotional state of being pregnant I called my nurse (who I was told was not in today at the big clinic, but was at the little one- surprise!).  I told her the whole story about how it seems that I have had trouble with scheduling of my appointment all the time.  I have had at least 3 or 4 appointments scheduled with the wrong doctor, been called at least twice when the receptionist has not looked at my doctors surgery schedule and scheduled my appointment to early in the day.  She apologized and explained that he technically wasn't suppose to be in but nobody could cover in the small clinic so he had to come in and wasn't taking any actual routine appointments.  She was wonderful as always and agreed the one receptionist at the big clinic needs an attitude adjustment.  So I'm only feeling a little better since he's going "try" to take his Wednesday appointments in the morning (which is me) but it might get rescheduled again.  Might as well wait until 37 weeks because I'm suppose to see him every week and at this point it will be a week and half before I see him since my last appointment.  I'm only slightly bitter but I realize a family emergency is a family emergency and I'm sure he's stressed.

Then my husband went and got sick on me.  I kind of wish it would have been me.  I know that sounds crazy but I just need a nap and more poor hubby has no voice and feels like crap.  I guess we'll just keep trading off.

Still have not had any time to myself which is wearing on me more than the pregnancy.  I just can't deal anymore.  Like I said, the cup is empty.  Now, the weather is pretty crappy and they have sent the kids home from school early.  My biggest fear is that my in laws will want to stay here on their way home from vacation.  I don't know if I can handle it anymore.

Wow, these posts are terrible.  Like I said, I just have to keep going and know that my faith cup will be filled.  I'm not alone, I just feel like that.  The God of Peace is right here with me, I just need the time to wrap myself in that.  THe list is long, but I know where to place this, it's just feeling like I can't get the time to do anything.  Ah, to keep praying.