Wisdom

I'm sitting here praying.  Just praying for wisdom.  We are studying the book of James in my bible study.  We read last night about praying for wisdom and if you believe and don't doubt it will be given to you.  I liked that.  Not everything will be given to you, life won't necessarily go the way you want, but if you pray for wisdom in dealing with the situations God will give it to you.  Maybe that is a simplified way of looking at it, but sometimes I think people get caught up in the verse from the gospel of Matthew and thinking "ask and you shall receive" means anything.  You should just receive anything, but that isn't true.  Our God is a God who loves us and not everything we want or ask for should be given to us.  It's like parenting, Martin may want something but I know that, for example, asking to help me with pancakes could get him burned because the stove is hot.  I maybe ask for things, but God knows.  I think asking for wisdom is a great prayer for me.  Wisdom to deal with situations, people, and life.

We are praying for wisdom right now with Martin.  He is sleeping terrible.  It has something to do with me, but I'm not sure how to fix it.  He slept all night with no problems while I was gone, but the minute I return he's up up up.  He started having rough nights a few months ago and so we decided just to put him in his toddler bed and deal with the situation from there.  No use in "sleep training" only to move him to a different bed and start over.  It has been very difficult as we continue to pray for wisdom.  He cried for over an hour last night with me periodically putting him back in his bed and telling him we loved him.  He would be out of that bed before I could make it out of his room.  He then woke up later that evening and we struggled for another hour until about 2:30am.  He slept until 7:45am when I had to wake him for MOPS.  It took me almost a half hour to get him to sleep this afternoon.  I just keep praying for wisdom.  In all of this I can just see us getting sick from lack of sleep and lack of patience.  Wisdom in helping this child get good sleep is definitely a prayer to be praying.